wildparsnip:

how do i know if i should care about someone? or, if i already do feel myself caring, how do i know if i should stop? am i putting too much effort into a one-sided thing? or am i being a good friend? is this person worth all my worrying and nervous planning? does it even matter? they will leave, anyway. no matter what happens, i will lose them.. it’s just a matter of time. because that’s what happens to all the friendships i have ever had. then the other side hits me… you only live once. don’t burn bridges. be caring and thoughtful. reach out to the people you care about. check up on people. but … is this person even worth that? is this person too emotionally stunted and damaged and in need of therapy to be worth my time and attention? i don’t know… i feel like all this is stuff that i should have experienced in high school, but i was too busy being a depressed and violently emotional recluse