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inkskinned:

Me: oh oops I almost drank my paint water lmao

The pretentious man writing my life: this is what drove him crazy about her, her wildness, her insanity. One moment she was peaceful, the artist in her nest – the next, she dived into chaos, dined on it, challenged it. Just when he thought he understood her, she moved to again rewrite her definition, always unknowable, always glittering like the ocean, hinting at a story yet untold, laughing at a joke not meant for him, her eyes twinkling with secrets and humor and the otherworldly feminine. She was surrounded by color, loved it so much she tried to pour it inside of her, tried to poison herself with it, tried to paint even her organs. He wanted to kiss her, to entangle that art into his own skin – but the moment was passed. She was again order, peace. The chaos ceased. He didn’t even get to touch her boobies.

theroguefeminist:

ladyloveandjustice:

Actually, I think what’s going on is I used to approach things with a lot cynicism and righteousness and a secret satisfaction in a feeling of superiority-always ready to fight. For whatever reason, a lot of that has burned out of me when life beat me down and I’m more prone to wanting to understand, analyze, learn, have an open heart and mind. I want to focus on myself and getting better and doing what I can to help rather than trying to change others for now.

So even small things people do that remind me of that- even if they’re nothing like who I used to be- can tire me out because I remember what it used to be like and how I don’t want to be that anymore. Maybe that’s the key. I need to stop associating these things with who I was before all this, and let people have their own way of doing things. Instead, I have to continue to do what makes me feel better and try to be kind.

I’m the same way. I think it’s a change for the best and I also think it comes with age and maturity. I used to be on the offensive and aggressive about who I was and what I believed and in terms of policing people and being superior to people, but yeah, now I try not to snap to judgments, I try to give people more the benefit of the doubt. And yes, the focus on self-improvement.

I think it’s fair to be tired out or turned off by people who are like that, though. I think it’s also fair to avoid that kind of energy. I honestly think this position is an ultimately healthier one, because the other is just…a narrow view I guess? Like it requires less contemplation and understanding. But maybe I’m not being as even-handed as you are about it. I mean, there’s no stopping other people from acting how they act, but when they take it too far and hurt others… at that point it’s fair to be critical. I honestly think the culture on tumblr really promotes that kind of bellicose attitude, so it’s good to have it checked by reason every once in awhile.

platovevo:

platovevo:

it’s really fucking interesting that accusations of inaccessibility never seem to be levied against The Hard Sciences

if someone asks me what i’m doing in lab and i explain a little bit of maxwell’s vortex hypothesis, nobody expects to understand the whole thing. you have to have some foundational knowledge of calculus and electromagnetism, and you need to study faraday’s experimental data; without those, i can give you a summary of maxwell but i can’t possibly make you understand the whole thing. that’s not a failing on my part, your part, or maxwell’s. it’s just how it goes when someone produces a paper in a specialized field, and people generally accept that.

if someone asks me what i’m writing my annual essay on and i say it’s about spinoza’s conception of god as explicated through nature, suddenly i’ll get people who expect that either the entire thing needs to be stated in fifth-grade vocab terms, in which case they’ll shit on the entire field of philosophy for being easy, or i’m being inaccessible and elitist, in which case they’ll shit on the entire field of philosophy for being pretentious and esoteric. it’s striking, actually, the extent to which people have different expectations of subjects i’m in fact studying simultaneously in an interdisciplinary program.

there are plenty of academics who overuse jargon, whose writing is genuinely unintelligible and needlessly convoluted, and who i would like to punch in the face. but the solution to that problem is not to make blanket statements about how knowledge must always be accessible to people outside the field. and even when people do make those statements they never mean them. what they mean is that they think humanities are essentially lower and dumber than hard sciences and that the way students discuss them should reflect that.

a fools guide to not wanting to die anymore

colacharm:

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore 

  1. never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.
  2. find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.
  3. talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore
  4. picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else
  5. if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.